I’ve been reading this week in the Old Testament book of Esther and what a joy it has been to be reacquainted with this wonderful story of God’s redemption and grace. If you haven’t read the book of Esther in a while I encourage you to do so and enjoy this story along with me.

Even though Esther is the main participant there is another individual I want to focus on and his name is Haman. Haman was promoted by the king to a position of great power and authority,second only to the king.Incidentally, this king (Ahasuerus) was so great that he threw a party that lasted 180 days! And you thought you could party?

As I was saying,Haman was a great man who demanded that everyone bow to him in order to pay him the respect he felt was due him.And everyone did,everyone except a man named Mordecai,who was also a Jew.Day after day Haman passed by this man Mordecai who refused to pay him homage,and his anger grew more intense every day.So much so that Haman determined to destroy all the Jews and convinced the king to go along with his evil plot.

That says a lot about the heart of a man,doesn’t it? A man who had power and influence over an entire kingdom yet could only focus on this one man who refused to bow to him. Listen to what Haman did after dining with the king and queen one evening…

So Haman went out that day joyful and with a glad heart; but when Haman saw Mordecai in the king’s gate, and that he did not stand or tremble before him, he was filled with indignation against Mordecai.

Nevertheless Haman restrained himself and went home, and he sent and called for his friends and his wife Zeresh.

Then Haman told them of his great riches, the multitude of his children, everything in which the king had promoted him, and how he had advanced him above the officials and servants of the king.

Moreover Haman said, “Besides, Queen Esther invited no one but me to come in with the king to the banquet that she prepared; and tomorrow I am again invited by her, along with the king.

“Yet all this avails me nothing, so long as I see Mordecai the Jew sitting at the king’s gate.”  Esther 5:9-13  NKJV

Can you imagine this scene? Here is a man who has been given so much.People honor him.They no doubt fear him.He even gets to have dinner with the king and queen.But even that is not enough to satisfy him.

No,he wants it all. And what is standing in his way of having it all is this one Jew named Mordecai.Can you imagine this?

Of course,no one dared ask Haman how much is enough? How much do you need? Will you ever be content with what you have been given? You have more than the rest of us combined!

Like Haman,many of us have been given riches beyond what most of this world can even comprehend,yet still that is not enough. I dare say that the vast majority reading this will not go to bed hungry tonight.We will not suffer lack tomorrow or the next day.We will go to our jobs instead of poking around a garbage dump or trash bin.In short,we will have all we could ever need, and exceedingly more.

And still we will not be satisfied.For our hearts wander aimlessly,ever searching for next new thing.The next rush,the next challenge.The next relationship.With our hearts divided we can never be satisfied, nor can we know contentment.We can only know the call of more.

Like Haman.

We sing the song “He’s all I need” yet continually search for something, or someone else.His word is filled with thousands of promises,yet still we look elsewhere.

Like Haman. Never enough.

When will we ever get tired of chasing what we will never find apart from a loving God?